Yes, I was

Okay, I admit it. I was in hiding. I cut myself off from everyone for several months. Two reasons: I had so much going on that I didn't know where to or who to turn to and also to see if anyone would really notice and contact me.

Right in the middle of selling my house, I had bariatric surgery and then moved 2 weeks laster. It was a 6 week recouperation process and I was unable to do anything.

My new house is roomier and I'm happier living in it (minus the kitchen & bathroom) but the basement is still jam packed with boxes.

I went to my first "event" a few weeks ago when I went to the picnic. I reconnected with some people and even met a potential new boy for me. We'll see how that goes.

I want to start the monthly munches back up though since no one has questioned their absence, I really do wonder if anyone is even interested anymore.

I had my tea party yesterday and that went really well! The house looked nice, the company was wonderful and the yummies were just that!

I'm looking forward to Christmas at my house and then the following Saturday is my After Christmas Regifting Party. Looks like we'll be having a dip party! That could be very interesting :)

I hope all is well with you... and wish you a very happy and safe Christmas and/or Holiday Season.

A Dominant Woman

We often associate dominant women with whips, chains and a pitiful man groveling at their feet while licking a pair of vinyl boots. This certainly occurs with some regularity, but you may be surprised to learn that dominance doesn’t always translate into sadism. On the contrary, many dominant women play the superior role in relationships simply because their man hasn’t learned how to dominate them. She may be strong-willed, feisty and independent, but this doesn’t mean she doesn’t want to be ravished like any other female might. If you’re ready to take charge in the bedroom, the following tips will show you precisely how to sexually dominate a dominant woman.


Take the lead
Dominant women tend to be physically aggressive in the bedroom; these are the chicks who’ll throw you down on the bed and ride you like a champion. While this vision may appeal to most men, allowing this to happen on a regular basis puts you in a subservient role -- and that’ll carry over into other areas of your relationship. If you want to wear the pants, you’re going to have to show her you can. To dominate a dominant woman, the next time she pounces, turn the tables and flip her onto her back. Keep her firmly (but not painfully) pinned to the bed and let her writhe for a bit. As she struggles to regain the upper hand, calmly let her know you’re going to be in charge for the rest of the evening. Her panties will be soaked by the time you finish the sentence. Just be prepared to deliver the goods, as you’re bound to have one horny woman on your hands.

Maintain eye contact
Proper eye contact is extremely important when it comes to asserting dominance. A truly dominant man or woman can influence a less dominant person with the subtlest of glances. When two dominant people are vying for the role of leader, however, subtlety is no longer an option. Your vixen will try to dominate you by staring straight into your eyes and giving you a wicked grin that promises sexual submission on her terms. Most men, when faced with a woman like this, turn to jelly and happily let her do whatever she pleases. To dominate a dominant woman, however, it’s crucial you don’t fall for this move. Lower your eyelids slightly and stare back while returning that wicked little grin; this tells her she’s going to have to do much better than that if she wants to play Dom. It also tells her you’re capable of the same tricks, which will make her wonder what else you’ve got up your sleeve. While these thoughts are going through her mind, she’s likely to break eye contact and look away -- this is a good indication she’s open to being dominated.

More ways to dominate a dominant woman…

Make her beg
Begging is the ultimate sign of submission, and it can be an incredibly sexy experience for both individuals. When trying to dominate a dominant woman, the idea is to show her how much she really wants you to dominate her, in spite of all those verbal denials she keeps making. The easiest way to accomplish this is via oral sex. Turn her on as you would any other woman, spending lots of quality time on her clitoris. When she reaches the point of moaning and thrashing, back off a bit. That’s right; slow down. Let your tongue explore another area for a few seconds, nibble her inner thigh, etc. Keep lavishing attention on her body, but avoid the clitoris at all costs. The mix of sexual frustration and sexual stimulation will make her want you a thousand percent more than she did when she thought orgasm was imminent. A dominant woman will likely demand you direct your attention back to her clitoris, which, you will of course do -- just as soon as she begs for it. You’ll probably have to insist more than once, but when she finally gives in, her orgasm is bound to be explosive.

Tell her what you’re going to do
Telling a dominant woman precisely how you’re going to dominate her is a guaranteed challenge. And dominant women are all about a challenge; it’s an invitation for her to try her best moves on you, and an opportunity for you to show her who’s really in charge. If you want a head start with dominating a dominant woman, use this tip over dinner or in the car on the way back to your place. She’ll be intrigued by your confidence and aroused by your promises. Once you’re in bed, tell her you’re going to take her from behind and make her scream your name all night long. Tell her you’re going to go down on her until she begs for orgasm. Tell her you’re going to dominate her and that she’s going to love every minute of it -- and then show her you’re a man of your word.

Guide her hands
Dominant women do what they want, when they want. She’s fully accustomed to grabbing a man and pulling him in for a long, deep kiss before she takes over completely. When dealing with women like this, it’s important you’re clear from the start regarding who is leading whom. This means even the kissing is done on your terms. If she slides her fingers through your hair and draws you near, dominate a dominant woman by taking hold of her hands and sliding them around your neck instead. This move tells her you’re happy to have her hands on you, but that she will not be using them to assert dominance. If she’s pawing at your body like she owns it, intercept her hands and guide her palms across her own body. The thrill of having control taken away, combined with a sexy mutual exploration of her own curves, will have her purring in no time.

turning the tables
While it’s true that some dominant women only enjoy sex when a man is groveling, there are plenty of dominant women out there who prefer what dominant men have to offer in the bedroom. These women like a good challenge, as long they’re respected in the process. Don’t let the feisty chicks intimidate you, and don’t assume they aren’t worth the effort; dominating a dominant woman can take sex to a whole new dimension. Score one of these vamps in the bedroom, and you stand to score the best sex of your life.The Original Article

Camp Crucible

Where to begin? I wanted to write about this last week when it happened but a lot has happened since I returned home too.

I attended Camp Crucible with my boy jack. We stayed in a cabin that would have slept 12 people. It was a bit more rustic than I would have liked, but I survived. The day after we arrived, another Femdom and her boy arrived shortly followed by a single male sub.

I've been to Black Rose Conventions every year except 2001, and I was at the first Dark Odyssey event. They don't even begin to compare to Camp Crucible. One of the many things I enjoyed about it was the fact that we all had meals together. We tried to sit with different people each time so we could get to know more people.

I FINALLY had my first fantasy ever brought to fruitation. I chained jack up to a tree naked while others walked by or rode the ever popular crucible cabs and made comments to jack... who the poor thing, couldn't say a word! I'd been thinking of that since I was 6 and out on the playground.

Some of the other things that I did: put him in the cock stocks outside and teasingly tortured him, chained him to the bed while I went outside and played with someone else, explore various opportunities in water sports, humiliated him with pork & beans, made him do rude things to a banana peel and set up a surprise kidnapping scene. Surprisingly, not once did he wear his pink ballerina outfit. He did however serve me and many other Femdoms as a sissymaid at the Victorian Tea.

I actually took a list of things that I wanted to do with him or to him and got everything accomplished but one. Guess I'll have to save that for next time!

The only thing I was disappointed about was the fact that I purchased a new swimsuit and the water was too cold to go swimming. Swimsuits are optional but not for this Lady. :)

We are definitely looking forward to attending again!

Mother's Day 2008

WOW! That's what I have to say! I thought Mother's Day would be sad knowing that my children were going to their paternal Grandparent's house for Mother's Day dinner.
My daughter asked if I could make lunch as opposed to the dinner that I really wanted to prepare. I agreed (reluctantly thinking my children would eat and run to get to Grandma's) and on Saturday went to Coscos' to plan the meal. Mr. Man was trying to get me to purchase items that would require no prep-work so I could sit and relax. "And do what?" I asked him. "Relax" he said. I blinked as though he were speaking a foreign language. He told me I do too much, and I began to cry. I told him I don't know what to do if I'm not doing something! And wow! Did I realize what a control-freak I really am at that moment. I want to do it all! I want it completely my way. I used to joke about it, but didn't realize how true it really is.

Back home, my daughter and I decided to invite EuroTrashGirl over for our Mother's Day festivities since her children will not return home to her until evening.

After cleaning the house and shopping and buying new plates, table clothes, serving dishes, and preparing the food (and being exhausted), my Mother's Day Mood had shifted to one of happiness and joy from all the planning and decision-making!

On Mother's Day, my daughter went to pick up 2 of my son's (my step-son had to work). My mother arrived first. EuroTrashGirl and my youngest son and daughter came at the same time. My oldest couldn't come because of a stiff neck. I could see the concern for him my daughter had when she told me. I was happy to see my youngest since he seldom comes over, and of course having my daughter home after being gone for 3 years was a joy. We sat and talked while Mr. Man fired up the grill and put the monsterous burgers and the 4-cheese sausages on the grill. My mom made marinated boneless chicken thighs. There was enough food for an additional 6 people. Everyone ate and enjoyed themselves. I had purchased a book called, .Every Mom Should Have a Book Like This"" with various quotes from famous people regarding their love for their mothers. I gave that and a beautiful box filled with gourmet cookies. We are also going to the Opera on Friday to see Madame Butterfly.

My daughter gave her Grandma, EuroTrashGirl and myself a very pretty painted pot with 3 different types of flowers in it. My Mom gave me pretty pink flowers with pink roses and EuroTrashGirl gave me a gorgeous arrangement of exotic flowers.

I then received the icing on the cake! My daughter and my sons each painted me a different style of glass with something that was meaningful on it. My youngest gave me a wine glass with a rainbow painted around it. On the foot of the glass, he painted the sun, the moon, the stars and the rainbow... the symbols for each of my genetic children. I was moved near tears! The next gift I opened was a martini glass with a penguin painted on it, with snow falling in the background and the snow drifts on the stem and foot of the glass. Wow! My son loves penguins and I've always loved them as well. The last gift came from my daughter. A wine goblet painted with a beautiful red flower from the top of the stem to midway up the goblet. Happy Mother's Day was painted on it and the stem was elaborately finished with beading and celestial symbols.

I was impressed. I knew that other than not seeing 2 of my boys that day (they both did call), I was and am the luckiest mother in the world!

Mom, I love you! EuroTrashGirl, thank you for being a part of a wonderful day in my family! Mr. Man, thank you for making sure I didn't go nuts over-over planning, and for cooking on the grill. Sunshine, & Rainbow thank you for a very memorable Momma's Day!

Oh Yeah! And we played a game of Compatability! I was partnered with EuroTrashGirl, Mr. Man was partnered with my Mom, and my children were partnered together. It's a really cool game about finding out how much you know about your partner by trying to figure out which images they attribute to the chosen topic. I love it!

Friendship and Dinner

The weekend started off by having dinner with good friends. There were six of us, Mr. Man, Sunshine (my daughter), Tapestry, Pirate Daddy, EuroTrashGirl and myself. My friends Tapestry and Pirate Daddy have shared their wonderful friends with me and I am blessed to be able to include them in my life. EuroTrashGirl is truly special. She's intelligent, witty, humorous, honest, intuitive and dammit she just makes me laugh! Like Tapestry, I feel like I've known her for a very long time.

EuroTrashGirl came over to my house after her children were picked up and we hung out for a few minutes before heading to one of my favorite restaurants. It's located in Greektown in Highlandtown; Samos

After we arrived and put our name on the list, Tapestry, Pirate Daddy and Mr. Man showed up. Tapestry handed me a bag and told me it was a gift from Pirate Daddy and herself. I was thrilled when I pulled out the bottle of wine. They know me so well!!!
How perfect! I felt so loved and so understood! Thank you both!!! I opened the wine with dinner and shared it with everyone. HEY! I MAY be a Bitch! But I'm a giving one!

From a website: 2006 Bitch Grenache South Australia

This ain't your Daddy's Grenache. This is a wine about pleasure. Subversive pleasure. Not everyone needs to approve in order for YOU to have pleasure. Winemakers will tell you that Grenache is a bitch to grow. And, it's a bitch to make. It's a wine that can easily be vapid, but potentially as profound as wine gets. The Bitch is from Barossa. It's mainly Northern Barossa fruit. Mainly bush vine, but also some trellised vineyards. Chris Ringland makes the wine. The wine sees no oak. The objective of the wine is to provide pure, explosive, unadulterated, hedonistic, uncompromising, juicy Grenache. 90 points from Robert Parker's Wine Advocate: "Bitch Grenache is sourced from 40- to 60-year-old vines from the Ebenezer sub-region of the Barossa. With the price of Cotes du Rhone soaring due to the weak dollar, I am hard pressed to think of a better value in full-flavored Grenache. The 2006 Bitch Grenache received no oak treatment. Medium ruby-colored, it presents an alluring bouquet of earth, smoke, rhubarb, cherry, and strawberry. Supple, sweet, and tasty, this wine totally over-delivers for its humble price and is an exceptional value."


We celebrated that night, friendships that are giving, caring, warm, funny mixed in with love and admiration. To all of those who there... I love you all. Thank you for touching me deeply.

What was for dinner and other random thoughts

So we're laying in bed last night and I started thinking about my busy day. I then started thinking about dinner and what we had and where we went. We go out to dinner most nights. Working & commuting 12 hour days takes it's toll on me as well as the fact that we've spent the last 4 or 5 weekends packing and moving, so we have dinner out.

For the life of me I couldn't remember where we went or what we ate. I started laughing out loud as I recalled..... I'd made dinner! It was turkey tetrazzini and a salad.

Once I told him why I was laughing, he told me "it's because you ordered Iced-Tea".

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We went to Hershey Park a few weeks ago with two submissives. Afterwards, we went out for dinner. Greta Von Pet ordered a beer and was carded. Pita looked at the waitress and saw that her uniform had a button on it that said, "We card up to 39 1/2". Pita became offended because he's not 39 1/2 yet and said to the waitress... "Hey! How come you didn't card me?" The waitress and I both said at the same time... "It's because you ordered Iced-Tea!"

That line will stay around for quite some time I'm sure.

Packing Mr & Mrs Packrat

Lots of packing and moving boxes to storage. I thought I'd be finished by now. Wow! I got a LOT of stuff!

The house looks MUCH better without all of "that stuff" sitting around! I'm thankful that we are such a good team and work well together. We work so well together (chuckles) that he knows when to stay out of my way and when to stay busy. I admit, if you don't already know this about me, I'm a control freak. I want it done and I don't want to have to wait for it. (So why are you standing around?)

I was finishing up with my bedroom on Saturday and was wondering where Pete was and what he was doing! I walked into the second bedroom to find he was "arranging the hangers by style and color" When I asked what he was doing he stated, "staying busy and out from under your feet".

It took everything I had not to bust out laughing. I know he's a man, but I swear, I have yet to learn WHY they cannot look around and see what really needs to be done as opposed to "puttering" or waiting to be told. It's okay, at least he wasn't watching television.... he knew better obviously.

2 New submissives make me a happy Domina

My munch the other night was fantastic. The last two were two of the nicer ones as of late. It was a good crowd even though a few special people were missed by myself and a few other friends.

One of the male submissives I've been speaking with attended. He is very warm and friendly. Although new to submission, he seems more than ready to step over the threshold and begin his journey.

We seem to be hitting it off very well and I look forward to training him to submit to me. We will be attending BESS together this Wednesday.

....

I am still waiting to re-meet one that I met last year. I was attracted to him initially but thought he was with someone else and didn't bother finding anything else out about him. Come to find out, he was playing socially at the house party we both attended.

I know we'll get together soon, but it will need to be after the house is finished being packed and my daughter returns home on the 25th.

...

At the munch the other night one Dom jokingly said I need a flow chart to keep my life running smoothly with my subs. I started to take offense and then realized that it was really funny and used the comment to my advantage the rest of the evening.

Do I have "too many" submissives? If they were all full-time at my feet, then yes, I'd say that I did. However, with life circumstances of family, distance and work I spend many weekends "unattended". I adore those who submit to me. They are a part of my family and if I can love many children, why could I not have feelings for more than one submissive. Back to the "flow chart", I would love it if I was able to get my self and submissives on a schedule so I could always be served in the manner it is that I seek.

Sometimes, it sucks to have such wicked ideas and no one to play them out with on a regular basis. :)

Me Pirate Name... Arr!

Thanks Pirate Daddy and Tapestry! Now I have me own!

My pirate name is:

Captain Bess Rackham

Even though there's no legal rank on a pirate ship, everyone recognizes you're the one in charge. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from piratequiz.com.
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I CHOOSE:

to live by choice - not chance,
to make changes - not excuses,
to be motivated - not manipulated,
to be useful - not used,
to excel - not compete,
to foster self-esteem - not self-pity,
to work to live - not live to work,
to listen to the inner voice - not the random opinion of others,
to live my life happily - not to allow anyone to ever interfere with it.
to create my own sanity - not to allow others to make me unhealthy.

I choose to dominate my world.

Welcome to the world according to Ren!

Barack Hussein Obama

Could I vote for a man named Barack Hussein Obama? A multiracial man whose father was from another country? I man who most of the black race sees as black; yet also forgets that he "was" Muslim (but converted to Christianity). I feel that regardless of how much we may push against our childhood and our upbringing, it really never leaves us and has helped create and format who we as individuals are, how we thing, feel, and handle situations.

How does one go from studying the Kuran to the Bible? How does one believe in Allah and wait... now he doesn't he believes in God Almighty?


So let's see...

Hussein
Obama
Black
Foreign father
Muslim

9/11 is just too recent for me to consider the above to run for President of the USA.

I can't even begin to listen to his views because I can't get this out of my mind, "Barack Hussein Obama; former Muslim for President of the USA!"


10 years ago, I may have felt differently. But this is not my President.

Blogging can be DEADLY!!!

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Be careful Tapestry!! Don't get a papercut????

Never did open up the url... just saw that on a google search I was doing.

xoxox

Things I'd like to do at this moment:

Take a painpill (I tweaked my back this morning)
Curl up and take a nap
Masturbate
Go shopping (with money I don't have)
Find the man with the vacuum cleaner to clean up these tiny red metallic hearts I spilled on the floor behind my desk at work.

Geez!

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

You Were Born Under:

Popular and crafty, you are a master at the art of seduction. You are intelligent and intuitive - and make a savvy businessperson. You live life to the fullest, even if it means maxing out your credit cards. Many people are secretly (and hopelessly) in love with you. You are most compatible with a Rooster or Ox.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Are You Destined For World Domination?

You Are Destined to Rule the World

You have the makings of a very evil dictator... Which is both kind of cool and kind of scary! Will you rule the world? Maybe. Maybe not. But at least you know that you could.

Are You Destined For World Domination?

Silly Quiz, Inspired by PirateDaddy

I'm saving MY Favorite for Last.......



Silly Quiz

1. Once you've heard a sound, where does the sound go?

2. What colour is a chameleon?

3. In a light tight room from where light cannot escape, when you turn off the light bulb, where does the light that filled the room go?

4. Why is it called the Afterlife when it's really Afterdeath?

5. Why is it called Afterdark when it's really Afterlight?

6. What was the best thing before sliced bread?

7. Why do 24/7 stores have locks fitted to the doors?

8. Why are soapsuds always white?

9. Why do you drive on a parkway, and park in a driveway?

10. Why do Superheroes wear tights?

11. If Buzz Lightyear doesn't know he's a toy why does he stop talking when humans are around?

12. If humans evolved from apes, why do we still have apes?

13. Who filmed Neil Armstrong's first step on the moon?

14. If humans left the earth, would Time cease to exist?

15. Why do Psychics keep sending me spam, don't they know I'm not interested?

16. What was the root of all evil before money?

17. Who cut off Mickey's tail?

18. What seeds were used for seedless grapes?

19. Why do kids always make the wrong comment at the wrong time in front of the wrong people?


And lastly:

20. If we all stopped voting, would the politicians go away?

New Job

Grumble grumble grumble. I'm not thinking that this new job is the one for me. Unfortunately, I have to wait 6 months before I can be considered for another position in the company.

I am just as/if not more bored than I was before. Okay, here's something stupid to bitch about... Why is it, they want to pay me lots of money, to do NOTHING???

I have been asking for things to do, "You have a meeting in 2 hours, is there something I can help you with to prepare for your meeting?", "Any powerpoint or excel spreadsheets that need to be updated?" "Do you need anything typed, filed, LICKED????"

Sweet Jesus, give me SOMETHING to do that will me me feel like a productive and worthwhile employee! Is it too much to ask to want to EARN my pay instead of being made to sit on my ass for hours and hours daily? Ha! I told my girl last night when she asked me how my day was to smell my thumb (I've had it up my ass all day doing nothing!) LoL

Okay, I'll get used to it. I did speak with the admin that held my job for 7 years, and was told by her that she wanted to tell me during the interview that it wasn't a very busy position, but that my boss wouldn't allow her to. Dammit! I feel like he lied to me when he said that there would be work to do.

It's also very apparent he does like to be be bothered by me asking him for something to do. I went to all of his managers and offered my assistance to them as well and they told me they weren't accustomed to giving work out to anyone. They are happy doing it themselves.

I'll wait it out, until I can apply for other positions and just keep smiling.

I think I'll go wash my hands now though. LoL

Hungry Girl Goes...Out for Sushi!

Dust off your favorite chopsticks, people. HG is here with her top eight dos and don'ts of sushi eating!

1. The Roll Truth
Fewer rolls = a better idea. Why? Because rolls are loaded with rice. And rice is loaded with calories. Also, avoid anything deep-fried or mixed with mayo at all costs. And feel free to split your roll(s) with a pal!

2. Miso Hungry
Afraid you'll gobble up too much sushi? Start your meal with a cup of miso soup. It's super-low in calories (around 50, for a POINTS® value 1), typically fat-free, and it fills you up. Studies show that people who start their meals with a broth-based soup end up eating 20 percent fewer calories at that meal. Awesome!

3. What's your number, cucumber?
Ever hear of sunomono salad? It's thinly sliced cucumbers in rice vinegar, it's sooooo good, and extremely low in calories. Ask your sushi chef to make you one of these salads and ask him to toss in some shrimp and crab—you'll have a completely guilt-free, filling addition to your meal. Sometimes I'll just get a ginormous shellfish-packed sunomono and a cup of miso soup for lunch. Mmmmmm!

4. Sushi Dictionary at a Glance
Words to avoid at all costs—"tempura" (a batter-fried fat fest), "dynamite" (baked in a glob of mayo), "crunch" (another cute way of saying something is fried) and "spider" (typically a greasy, fried crab item).

5. Be a sucker for sashimi.
When I eat sushi out I tend to stick with sashimi. Sashimi is basically just sushi without rice (or raw fish on a plate!). Sashimi is often pricier than sushi because you get more pieces in an order. So if you want to have more variety, or save a little money, order sushi pieces, and only eat half of the rice. See below for more rice tips.

6. Get the rice right.
If brown rice is available, stick with that. And don't be shy, whatever rice you order, feel free to ask your sushi chef to serve your meal with less rice. Typically sushi chefs are happy to accommodate this request. It's a neat little trick that really helps.

7. Whassup, Wasabi?
Mixing a little wasabi into your soy sauce (or add a dollop to your sushi if you're brave!) can be great. Spicy food is good for you, and it helps fill you up faster. Some experts even say that adding spice to food can actually speed up your metabolism a bit—not a bad thing!

8. Friendly Finds
More guilt-free friends you'll find at your local sushi spot include edamame (a 1/2 cup serving of shelled edamame contains 127 calories, 6g fat and 4g fiber, for a POINTS value 2), ginger (great for digestion and virtually calorie-free) and seaweed salad (typically about 50 calories and a POINTS value of 1).

Happy sushi-ing!

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

What Goddess Are You?

Okay, really.. you just can't believe all of these tests.

OR CAN YOU?

Social Anxiety

Your Social Anxiety Level: 48%

You have moderate social anxiety. It's possible that you have a serious social anxiety problem. But it's also likely that you can help yourself, by getting out more and trying new, scary activities. No one's secretly judging you. So be yourself, and if you screw up, just laugh.

Are You Socially Anxious?

What Should You Be When You Grow Up?

Okay, so my dear friend Tapestry has taken this test and I decided it sounded like a good idea. I will have you know however that I may age, but I refuse to become a grown up. Life is too much fun to be your own age.

You Should Be a Politician

Confident, assertive, and dedicated - you know what you want in life and how to get it. Stubborn and opinionated, you can stand your ground... even if it's unpopular. And while you have strong views, you never overwhelm people with your opinions. A true charmer, you subtly influence people into seeing things your way. You do best when you: - Work according to your own rules - Can change the world with what you do You would also be a good lawyer or talk show host.

What Should You Be When You Grow Up?

Grandchildren

Soo... I've caught some shit lately about not blogging recently (evil laff at the shit slinger).

We had a conversation this morning about my stepson and she told me "See? You could have blogged that!" So here goes.


We went to Pizza John's last night for dinner...

Took our son with us. I started harping on him about his girlfriend and when I was going to meet her. He informed me... he doesn't have one. Of course... I gasped!!!
Then said..
How in the HELL am I OR your father going to get grandchildren if you don't have a girlfriend????
His father said.... or a boyfriend??? you can always adopt!
I told him it didn't have to be right away.... but at least it would be nice if he were looking at prospects!

He told me he wasn't giving us any grandchildren.
GASP!!! I told him he had too... as his father's only child it was mandatory he had to give his father a grandchild.

He asked who made that rule. Of course I told him!

It was in the Rule Book!!!!
.... that I wrote

(I mean really! Is it so much to ask being a mother of 4, that I get grandkids before I'm too damned old to enjoy them??) Okay, I know they are a bit young 23, 21, 18, 17 but to hear that none of my boys want children and the only girl wants them, married to an idiot.

Anyone have any grandchildren for rent?

Here is my offer/negotiation:
1. Must have the option to return said grandchildren to their rightful owners at any time.
2. Must never be chastised for spoil said grandchildren.
3. Must never be corrected for having said grandchildren bake cookies and get to eat them.
4. The above mentioned grandchildren should understand at any time that as their grandma, if they are naughty, they may find theirselves in the corner or sent home.
5. Grandma gets to see them on all holidays, birthdays, and any damn time she wants.
6. Said child/children must realize that Grandma is not only the woman who loves to feed them, but really is just a big kid at heart and can't wait to slide down the sliding board or color in coloring books and read Dr. Suess to them and talk and giggle and play and and and

Where are my grandbabies????

New Job- Old Bosses

I just received an offer letter for a job I interviewed for. I'm really happy. The pay is better and the benefits rock! This is the type of company that people retire from. There is one guy here who started working here before I was born. Yep, he's old but he doesn't want to give it up.

I have 2 really great bosses right now and the one I interviewed with seems very nice as well, and I got to meet his former admin who said he's a really nice guy. He even offered to allow the two of us to chat without him so she could talk about him without him being there! LoL!

This got me thinking about bosses I've had in the past. I've had some wonderful ones, but I've also had my share of shitty ones! Here are just a few that I can come up with below.



"THE HEAD UP HIS ASS" BOSS
This guy had no clue how to successfully do his job or how to delegate. He was a bigwig for a huge religious institution. When I'd ask him 3 days in advance what he needed for me to work on to get him ready for his BIG meeting on Friday, he'd look at me like I'd lost my mind! His reply was, "Friday's meeting? I'm still working on what I'm doing today! I don't have time to worry about what is going to happen in 3 days!"

Okay, that could be reasonable, except the fact that there were 5 floors, and 3 copiers; 1 which was color and they were stationed on different floors. When it came time for the meeting on Friday, guess what? He had me and 2 other admins running around gathering all of the information he needed, running up and down stairs to find out WHICH of the 3 copiers worked because he needed 25 copies STAT! It was a fiasco! When did the meeting start? 10 minutes before he demanded what he needed!


"I'M THE BOSS AND I SAID SO" BOSS
I worked as an Office Specialist for a chemical company and my office was a long narrow office with my desk, cabinets, file cabinets and counterspace in the shape of a U. At the end of the U was a window to see out into the lobby so that when visitors came through, they'd have to sign in, get a badge and if first time visitors, I'd have to set them up with a safety video.

My back was to my bosses office door, though we both had outer office doors. I'd be doing my job, which included A/P, Payroll, Ordering supplies, etc and catch a movement in the glass window in front of me. I'd turn in my chair to find my boss standing over my shoulder just watching me!

I'd ask him what he was doing and he'd ask me what I was doing. Like I was doing something that I wasn't supposed to be doing! He never wanted me to take his mail into his office and put it into his INBOX even though it was always overflowing. He liked to use it as an excuse to sneak up on me.

One time, one of the union workers asked him why he had to do something a specific way and the boss turned red in the face, balled up his fists at his side, stomped his feet and screamed... "BECAUSE I'M THE BOSS AND I SAID SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!"

This guy was such a kiss ass to corporate that he actually he thought he was doing the company a favor by not using the budget that was given to him. What happened? He saved the company tens of thousands of dollars, lost his job for not spending properly and put the Baltimore plant out of business! (LoL Jackass!)



THE SIRE ... .ERRR... SIGHER BOSS
This was a temp-to-hire position, and it was my understanding that this boss hired usually within 2 weeks time!

This boss sat in an office behind me. His office was long and wide (and luxuorous)! Mine was the front office reception area. He'd sit in his office all day and when asked a question by me, he'd SIGH. A long drawn out melodramatic SIGH! It wasn't like I had been there for 6 months and should know what I was doing. This was my first week; probably my first day!

I was quite amazed at how horrible it must have been to actually have to answer a question on how to do a job he hired for, but there was no training. I even asked him at one point when he got up and came in to my office,"Is it that bad"? He asked me what I meant, and I told him, "Every time I ask you a question, you sigh loudly, so I figure life must be pretty bad for you!"

When I met with him for the interview, I told him that I had an out-of-state dental appointment 2 weeks after the start date. He was fine with this. Until the day before when I reminded him that I had a dental appointment and would not be in. Go figure... I got a call while I was returning from the dental appointment that my services were no longer needed (from the temp agency).


Hoping that things go well with my new boss!

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Finding the perfect submissive male for me

I have finally put together what it is I'm seeking for a male sub...

It's really on a case by case basis, mixed with good chemistry and an acceptance and maybe even desire to join in poly household. Toss in the fact that he may be bisexual or a cuckold and life is grand. He would love feet, massage, and goddess worship as well as cbt, electrical and impact play. He would be obedient, honest, and understand about respect and when humor is and is not appropriate. Smart-asses need not apply.


Put him under 5'10'' with a medium build, good hygiene, good teeth and a decent income then life would be grand!


Maybe that's why I keep having the reoccurring dream of running through a field of wildflowers with a huge butterfly net, always coming out the other end with an empty net. Regardless of my search and the fun I'm having while doing it, I'm empty handed at the end of the day.

Last year

A lot has happened since last time I posted. I finally got a long-term position as a contractor for a government contractor. I've been here since June and have been offered a permenant position for another department. Hopefully with a lot more work. I'm not good as a thumb-twiddler.

My week started on a Monday and on Wednesday I went on a 5-day vacation. It was a bdsm vacation at Deep Creek Lake that I planned and choreographed. A lot of fun, but a lot of work too. It was an interesting mix of people and drama. I'd like to do it again, but I would definitely be more selective on who to invite.

I also became owner of a full time 24/7 submissive in my home. That lasted about 4 months and I was happy to see it dissolve. There was too much turmoil and drama to be a good fit; neither of us were what the other wanted or needed. ( I did have to chuckle last night though. This relationship ended 4 1/2 months ago, and he had someone contact me yesterday to see about getting the remainder of his things! He took things with him when he moved out and then came back a few days later to get the rest. His words to me were, "Get rid of whatever I left behind". Why on Earth would this person think that I'd hold on to his belongings 4 1/2 months later? Do I LOOK like a storage facility? Whatever was of any worth helped make up for his back rent that he owed me. Besides, this man has been nothing but outwardly rude to me at any event I see him at, why on Earth would he think that I'd go out of my way to help him out?

Summer went by without a beach vacation. That was disappointing but understandable. I did spend as much of it as I could with friends and family. One of my favorite events was at a friend's house in Virginia. She returned home from Maine with lobsters and did a lobster bake. My (then) submissive doesn't like "sea bugs" and was pretty icked out just looking at them.

September, a group of us went to King's Dominion for the weekend. We celebrated Pete's 40th birthday and as a wonderful gift to himself, he quit smoking!! YaY Pete!!!

October, my daughter came home for a wonderful 12 days for her father's marriage. She spent a lot of time with me and I was thrilled.

My son joined the Army National Guard. He is at this time in Arkansas getting his GED, and will return on Friday. He says once he gets that, he will upgrade to full-time Army status. He'll be home on the same day that his sister drives home from Texas with her husband. They'll be here for 5 days before driving back. In April, her husband will be out of the military and they will return home to Maryland for good. YaY!!!! Unfortunately, they'll also be bringing their 3 dogs with them. Lord only knows how that will work out.

November, I celebrated my 39th (+) birthday. Several of my bdsm friends went with me to Howl at the Moon and then to Club Hippo . I even had 2 male subs and 1 female sub at my side all evening. How nice was THAT!?!?!? :) Howl at Moon is a dueling piano bar and a lot of fun. Club Hippo is a gay bar and they had their Drag Show that night. One of my boys is a cross dresser so he was very intrigued.

December, I had a great Christmas. It was filled with family and my femsub friend came and stayed the night Christmas Eve. It was a wonderful day and family came in shifts. The evening ended with Pete's Dad and Grandad. What wonderfully sweet men. Pete's Grandad was very funny, not wanting to share his box of chocolates with anyone and making it a point to tease us with them.

Saturday after Christmas, I had a ReGifting Party. WHAT FUN!!!!! It was all lifestyle people and everyone had a good time. It was the first time that I'd ever participated in a "Chinese Gift Exchange". I can't wait to hold one next year!!!!

Here it is January of 2008!!! Where does the time go?
I am looking forward to a new job with fabulous benefits!!!
I look forward to seeing my daughter this weekend!
I look forward to seeing my son return from Arkansas!
I look forward to selling my house! (or renting it to my daughter?)
I look forward to moving/buying my mom's house!
I look forward to the bonus right before the holidays with my new job!!
I look forward to another year of good health, good friends and the man of my dreams.